Last weekend

Once in a while (hopefully every week) I should get out and have some personal time with my family and friends without worrying about baby Natalie. Mummy encouraged me to leave baby Natalie with our domestic helper Rita for a day while we go shopping.

Mummy wants to get a new wallet so Jeff and I took her to Orchard Road, as I also need to get the Secrets of Baby Whisperer at Kinokunia (that should answer the question on where to get the book). I haven't been posting my own photos for a very long time, so its time to camera whore again, even though I have yet to gone down to my pre-pregnancy figure.

Food at Hong Kong Cafe Central.

Jeff's favourite, beef brisket noodle.

Mummy and me.

My mummy pampered herself with a new Gucci wallet.

I enjoyed myself so much when I was out last Saturday, but constantly wondering if Baby Natalie has been fed, was she sleeping enough, did she has her shower so on. Therefore my short trip ended within 3-4hrs and headed home.

Baby Whisperer

It's a bright and sunny Wednesday, besides my baby's crying, I can hear birds chirping and insects cracking outside my house. Well, so I thought. Just when I was saying it's a bright and sunny day, dark clouds started to form over my roof and the next moment heavy down pour! I haven't even thought of my topic for today.

Just now a blogger msn me, after reading my post she sensed my distress and wanted to share her story about parenthood. Chatting with her soon made me feel so much better and it felt like finally I have found someone that understood me and the situation I am facing. She gave me very valuable tips and shared with me how she handle her kids. She is a mother of a 2 years old and a 3 months old baby. Dealing with a toddler and a baby is definitely more stressful than me just handling with one. I felt relieved that I am actually not in isolation, many new mothers also faces the same challenges like me. Soon chatting with her seem like holding a conversation with a long lost friend. She is also from the same forum with me and later found out that I am the same person here. Small world right? Thank you Gina for your useful tips and stretching out your helping hand to someone you barely know. My spirits are uplifted now.

Been reading a self help book called Secrets of the Baby Whisperer by Tracy Hogg. It's about learning the ability of understanding baby's every coo's and cries and how to set a flexible routine for baby. In her writings, she teaches using the method E.A.S.Y.–how to get baby to eat, play, and sleep on a routine that will make every member of the household’s life easier and happier. S.L.O.W.–how to interpret what your baby is trying to tell you (so you don’t try to feed him when he really wants a nap). Finished reading every single pages and now trying out her method. She believes that babies can be taught how to be independent starting from birth.

The book will only be useful if I try out myself, and true enough I have successfully learn how to identify when baby needs a nap and when she needs to feed. I am proud to say that Natalie is able to sleep on her own in her cot or playpen when she is tired. She doesn't need to be carried around all the time for her to get to sleep. Though she still needs pacifying, I now do that when she is lying on her cot. Giving her assurance that I will still be around, and letting her know that she is in a safe environment. I have also avoided all the things that will inculcate baby to bad habits. Overall this book is really worth reading and it gives a pretty good guidance to new mothers like me. I am able to respond to baby's needs correctly and also have my own personal time. It's not a miracle, but it's worth trying it out.

2 thumbs up for the book, I recommend to all new mummies to get a copy! It not only tells you ways of making your babies happy, it also tells you ways of making yourself happy!

When mother is happy, baby will be happy too!


I am an independent baby! I can play by myself and sleep in peace.


See me talk baby language! (30 seconds only)


See me laugh! (30 seconds only)

Dumex Mamex Gold Infant Formula Milk with Immunofortis

Many 1st time mummies and mummies to be has often post this question for me. What formula did feed baby Natalie with besides breast milk? Well here it is, I took a photo of the can and if anyone is interested, you may let your newborn try it if you have the intention to stop BF. Click on the link above to find out more.

Photos

I like to blog, its a way to channel out my feelings, and also able to get responses from readers comforts me too. There are many like me having the same frustrations and I know it is just the passing phase in life. Either I take up the challenge now or later, no escaping. I have come to terms with the situation, and finding other comfort zone for myself. I really love my baby, if anyone of you have any doubt on that. I do love her a lot, she is getting so adorable day by day and now so hug gable, so responsive. I like to dress her up, play with her, see the way she finishes her milk at every feeds. It is rewarding.




Just some photos of her taken over the weekends.

But human beings are greedy animals, the moment I agree to let maid handle Natalie, immediately I regretted my decision. I am a worrier, I worry she doesn't feed my baby on time, I worry she doesn't wash and sterilize the milk bottles properly, I worry she just leave my baby alone unattended. I worry about her hygiene conditions..... I worry Baby Natalie will miss me when I am not around. I don't trust maid to look after her, yet I am not enjoying being a SAHM. How IRONIC can I get, I am sure by now many of you that has been following my blog will want to give me a slap on my face telling me to wake up!

It's an emotional struggle, those worries just creeps in like a thief into my brain and starts creating all these doubts. I cannot stop them from invading my mind.

Monday

Was feeling rather lousy last Saturday. I felt that my world has come tumbling down on me and there is nothing much to look forward to except to bring up my daughter. Wonderful, really wonderful. What I initially planned and wanted came true and now I am complaining about it. I sometimes wonder why did I take on such a big change in life? Am I really prepared for it, and if not, will I be ever ready for it? It, refers to motherhood/ parenting.

I had a talk with Jeff on Sunday and he finally admitted he is not very into parenting too. He loves to play with children/babies, but looking after them, he is a complete handicap. I asked him what makes me then? I was not inculcated for motherhood either but whenever Natalie screams and cries, he will naturally push her back to me. Sigh, I am not blaming him, I know majority of the MEN on earth do not score flying colors on babysitting. Jeff just raise up his white flag and surrender. I couldn't even leave the both of them alone for an hour together and watch TV in peace.

I was pretty upset about it, as I still have lots of plans ahead, I intend to go on a short trip to Taiwan sometime in July/August with Miko. But seeing Jeff fret and frustrated over taking care of Natalie makes me wonder if that is ever going to be possible. I refuse to submit to a NO, and I am going for sure! He knew I was depressed and came to me and said:

Don't worry, I will be around.

How not convincing that sounded. I should be the one returning the exact words back to him as I feel that I am more qualified to say that. Sigh......

WITH A BABY, IT EITHER MAKES A MARRIAGE OR BREAKS IT.

Agree?

He told me he is pining big hopes on striking lottery so he can engage a full time nanny to look after Natalie and then that will be perfect! Wahhahahaah FAT HOPE LOR! He is just trying to ridicule me, I guess.

Anyway, it's life and I cannot stuff her back to where she came from right? So we took Natalie out to Babyfair at TAKA on Sunday. Shopped for toys for her to self entertain, or for me to self entertain. Gosh there were throngs of people at Orchard road yesterday, popping out from the exit down under, left right centre... crazy! Initially I wanted to get some clothes, cosmetics for myself but when I was there I cannot shop for myself. I felt like I am a changed person, I only shop for baby items now, like her clothes, her toys, her feeding equipments etc etc. After that we had to rush back home just in case Natalie gets agitated. So there is actually no time for personal shopping. Spent close to $250 just for her toys and clothes!

Met Alice and Hilda baby at Taka Babyfair yesterday, Hilda baby really looks very cute, especially her big round eyes! Very attractive!

Young grandparents.
宝宝不要让你们看所以把两点遮起来。美女出浴,三点不漏, 很难得把!

I am in Singapore Motherhood forum! I should have join in the chat earlier, it feels good to meet all the young mothers who faces similar tacky, tricky situations with our babies and give each other encouragements and advices. Now I don't feel so alone and lost.

Natalie is now wearing clothes ages for 3 to 6 months old babies. All the clothes I bought for her for 0 to 3 months has to be put aside already. Babies really grow very fast, some of the clothes only wore by her once and now she cannot fit into them anymore. I am not complaining, infact I can't wait for her to grow up! hehehe

Letting her learn some motor skills, she now working very hard to flip. Now she only manages to twist from left to right. When I let her lay on her tummy, she giggles very happily. She is able to lift up her head during tummy time but not high enough. She seems to be enjoying the little exercises I have planned for her everyday. :)

I am older, Natalie knows how to play

Didn't expect me to cross over to the 3's so fast, it was just like yesterday when I was happily partying with my friends at DB or Dragonfly. Now I am already officially 30 years old, great really great, stared myself at the mirror today to see if there is additional wrinkles appearing on my face. Luckily I didn't spot any new ones.... Ever since I have given birth, my life has already changed drastically, I am no longer as confident as before, no longer the carefree person I used to be. Now I am worst off by getting older...

Actually I am really surprised by my decisions... By right, I don't believe in marriages, I agree to cohabiting if 2 person truly loves each other. Still I got married. Even after marriage many says I behave like I am still single. Then life was still great as I carried on doing my own things, spending nights out with friends, so on. Another surprised decision is, getting a child. I use to dislike children and never see myself having one at all. I find that having a baby/children is a burden. Last year, don't know what struck me.... I wanted to be a mother, and now I fulfilled my wish. :P

I tough Natalie to play with her musical toy and I am amazed at the rate of her absorption. She learns fast and very persistent too. Now she is able to grab the ring of the musical toy and pull for music.



Isn't it amazing? I am so proud of her, she is a fast learning as she is only 2 months and 2 weeks old. Now I am training her to hold her own milk bottle, see photo below!


Training in process..... (2months old)

Happy birthday to Me.

Exactly 30 years ago there was lady in her early twenties gave birth to a baby girl. That baby girl now has grown up and she herself has turned into a mother of a 2 months old baby. It's only after she has given birth to a baby herself that she realised that birthdays are not just a happy occasion to celebrate the birth of oneself, but also a day that our mothers has gone through hard and pain for us. I have just turned 30.... Happy birthday to me and thank you mummy for all that you have gone through! I love you.

妈妈我爱你。你真伟大！
Romancing each other has been a form of luxury ever since we have Natalie. Not that I am grumbling or expecting any lavish gift or candle light dinner. I didn't even get a birthday greet from Jeff at all. He has totally forgotten about my birthday, to make me even more disappointed, there were so many occasions that he could have seen the date while reading the newspaper, surfing cable tv, walking pass the calender, he simply didn't notice it. I told him I am very upset and disappointed today, he even asked me why? Of course I didn't tell him, I don't see the point to enforce it anymore. It is really meaningless when I have to remind him of my birthday. I felt so NOT LOVE now...

Really tired, since the nanny left her employment at my house, Natalie has been very fretful for the pass 3 days. She doesn't want to drink her milk even when 5 hours has gone since the last feed. She screams and cries very loudly, pushing the milk bottle away. I am wondering what has gone wrong as she usually wants her milk within the 4 hours interval. Now she drinks about 4oz (120ml) each time, is it too much or too little?

Last night she had her last feed at about 10pm and lasted till 6am in the morning, is it normal? She still wakes up in the middle of the night at about 3am, 4am, 5:30am so on, and I thought she wanted milk, so I prepared her formular but in the end it all gone to waste. While the nanny was around, this didn't happen, nanny told me Natalie will wake up at about 3am for her milk. I guess she misses the nanny....

Jeff just walked passed me but didn't say a word, he could sense that I am unhappy but he just don't know why I am unhappy. Still didn't realise today is my birthday.... He must have thought that I am throwing tantrum for no reason and is ignoring me now.