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I like to blog, its a way to channel out my feelings, and also able to get responses from readers comforts me too. There are many like me having the same frustrations and I know it is just the passing phase in life. Either I take up the challenge now or later, no escaping. I have come to terms with the situation, and finding other comfort zone for myself. I really love my baby, if anyone of you have any doubt on that. I do love her a lot, she is getting so adorable day by day and now so hug gable, so responsive. I like to dress her up, play with her, see the way she finishes her milk at every feeds. It is rewarding.




Just some photos of her taken over the weekends.

But human beings are greedy animals, the moment I agree to let maid handle Natalie, immediately I regretted my decision. I am a worrier, I worry she doesn't feed my baby on time, I worry she doesn't wash and sterilize the milk bottles properly, I worry she just leave my baby alone unattended. I worry about her hygiene conditions..... I worry Baby Natalie will miss me when I am not around. I don't trust maid to look after her, yet I am not enjoying being a SAHM. How IRONIC can I get, I am sure by now many of you that has been following my blog will want to give me a slap on my face telling me to wake up!

It's an emotional struggle, those worries just creeps in like a thief into my brain and starts creating all these doubts. I cannot stop them from invading my mind.